Danced Around & LIFT
It’s the end of National Eating Disorder Awareness Week. I’ve posted a few items here and there, but I’ve manage to dance around a key point.. my personal experience. I guess I’m really still coming around to it being something I talk about openly. I’m not embarrassed, in fact I’m proud of what I’ve overcome, it’s more that I’ve rarely talked about it openly, so it’s an adjustment to do so. I am completely in awe by the women I’ve “meet” through this fantastic blogging community who share their recovery experience. I think it is truly inspirational for others going through similar experiences who think they are alone.
I struggled with trying to decide whether or not to write this post, because my personal experiences with EDs are in the past, just where I like them to be. On the other hand, those experiences have shaped who I am today. I strongly believe that they are something you can completely recover from. I know my experiences will make me a better health counselor, I just hope my future clients think so too. So perhaps that’s part of what makes me nervous. In addition, I’ve had relationships with individuals who did judge me, and saw it as a weakness, defect perhaps, and a not as a legitimate disease/problem. I’ve come to know that people who judge me for having had such experiences are people that I probably don’t want in my life anyway
I absolutely love where I am in life right now especially with regards to my health. Recently I posted about being unhappy with weight, but it isn’t in a self-disrespecting or unhealthy sort of way. I love my body & I love my curves, but I’m certainly more comfortable at some weights than other, whether that’s too light or too heavy.
I fell in love with the Fitness world, and in pursuit of a physical goals, I ended up learning & growing more emotionally & psychologically than I ever could have imagined. We all have our good & bad days. I hope that by being as honest as possible about my ups & downs in the past & present with my readers/clients/friends that we can all learn that health & body happiness is a journey with no endpoint and we can all learn from each other.
I love PB & Jenny’s LIFT (Life Is Fan-freakin-Tastic) movement, so here is mine. A few pictures of me simply enjoying life, living in the moment, confident, happy..
My 1st trip to Europe.. enjoyed every moment (that I wasn’t asleep with wicked jet-lag :p). I wasn’t in great shape physically, not to mention the crazy hair as a result of frying my straightener the first day, but who cares about stupid crap like that when you’re places like this..
Senior year of college.. few worries, just happy..
Hanging with family, no makeup, just enjoying the company I rarely get to have.. aren’t I a pleasure My parents have been supportive through the ups & downs & arounds. I’m lucky & thankful..
Partners in crime.. There’s nothing like good friends & laughter!
My kind of party.. one that involves Volleyball and other games, and not dressing up! .. oh and of course GO BEARS!
It doesn’t matter my body fat % .. I’m always an inner goof..
After seeing events like Fitness America in magazines, it’s certainly not someplace I ever thought I’d be. I was confident because I felt strong, because I knew I deserved to be there, that I worked my ass off (literally & figuratively) ..
Maybe not the booty shorts.. but give me a sports bra & tennis shoes.. I’m most confident, happy & content with no makeup, drenched in sweat after a crazy workout. Numbers on scales and awards don’t matter. I was smiling because I reached a goal, and I found a passion and met the most amazing people in the mean time..
Post with the regular stuff coming later today.. Including a product review and the BEST healthy dessert I’ve made in ages!