Danced Around & LIFT

It’s the end of National Eating Disorder Awareness Week. I’ve posted a few items here and there, but I’ve manage to dance around a key point.. my personal experience. I guess I’m really still coming around to it being something I talk about openly. I’m not embarrassed, in fact I’m proud of what I’ve overcome, it’s more that I’ve rarely talked about it openly, so it’s an adjustment to do so. I am completely in awe by the women I’ve “meet” through this fantastic blogging community who share their recovery experience. I think it is truly inspirational for others going through similar experiences who think they are alone.

I struggled with trying to decide whether or not to write this post, because my personal experiences with EDs are in the past, just where I like them to be. On the other hand, those experiences have shaped who I am today. I strongly believe that they are something you can completely recover from. I know my experiences will make me a better health counselor, I just hope my future clients think so too. So perhaps that’s part of what makes me nervous. In addition, I’ve had relationships with individuals who did judge me, and saw it as a weakness, defect perhaps, and a not as a legitimate disease/problem. I’ve come to know that people who judge me for having had such experiences are people that I probably don’t want in my life anyway

I absolutely love where I am in life right now especially with regards to my health. Recently I posted about being unhappy with weight, but it isn’t in a self-disrespecting or unhealthy sort of way. I love my body & I love my curves, but I’m certainly more comfortable at some weights than other, whether that’s too light or too heavy.

I fell in love with the Fitness world, and in pursuit of a physical goals, I ended up learning & growing more emotionally & psychologically than I ever could have imagined. We all have our good & bad days. I hope that by being as honest as possible about my ups & downs in the past & present with my readers/clients/friends that we can all learn that health & body happiness is a journey with no endpoint and we can all learn from each other.

LIFT

I love PB & Jenny’s LIFT (Life Is Fan-freakin-Tastic) movement, so here is mine. A few pictures of me simply enjoying life, living in the moment, confident, happy..

My 1st trip to Europe.. enjoyed every moment (that I wasn’t asleep with wicked jet-lag :p). I wasn’t in great shape physically, not to mention the crazy hair as a result of frying my straightener the first day, but who cares about stupid crap like that when you’re places like this..

Senior year of college.. few worries, just happy..

Hanging with family, no makeup, just enjoying the company I rarely get to have.. aren’t I a pleasure :) My parents have been supportive through the ups & downs & arounds. I’m lucky & thankful..

Partners in crime.. There’s nothing like good friends & laughter!

My kind of party.. one that involves Volleyball and other games, and not dressing up! .. oh and of course GO BEARS!

It doesn’t matter my body fat % .. I’m always an inner goof..

After seeing events like Fitness America in magazines, it’s certainly not someplace I ever thought I’d be. I was confident because I felt strong, because I knew I deserved to be there, that I worked my ass off (literally & figuratively) ..

Maybe not the booty shorts.. but give me a sports bra & tennis shoes.. I’m most confident, happy & content with no makeup, drenched in sweat after a crazy workout. Numbers on scales and awards don’t matter. I was smiling because I reached a goal, and I found a passion and met the most amazing people in the mean time..

:) ..

Post with the regular stuff coming later today.. Including a product review and the BEST healthy dessert I’ve made in ages!

13 Comments

  1. Amanda Miller /

    Your experiences make you who you are today and your experience with EDs will make you more relatable and inspirational to your clients. Great post!

  2. I once went to a personal trainer who clearly never struggled with weight or health issues in her life. I found it demoralising. I think you’re experiences will inspire your clients – they’ll see in you someone who overcame her own set of obstacles to achieve her goals. If you can do it, they can too. It’s motivating. And those people who judged you? Their douchebags. Forget about em’!

  3. I honestly did not know. Your experience will definitely make you a better health counselor. It’s hard to emphathize if you have no idea what other person is going through. You are such a strong cookie, you inspire a lot of us every day!

    • Alyson
      Twitter: NourishedFit
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      Thank you so much Vee! But I have to say you really have a gift with inspiring words. Even if I haven’t been able to comment as much, I read all your posts and they always help give me a lift!

  4. beautiful!! you have taken your past and used it to better yourself. you are awesome and soo driven! i love it! so strong!

  5. I think that having a counselor who relates to her clients is a benefit! I think some people may be afraid to talk to others in fear that they will think they are crazy or silly for thinking or behaving in certain ways. You are a great counselor! :)

  6. I am a strong believer in embracing our past struggles, because we have them to thank for the people we are today! You’ve have an incredible amount of experience and insight that will make you a wonderful counselor. I really hope that my past experiences will help me be a better personal trainer :)

  7. I think that you have the best attitude towards life. It really is about living AND learning. Taking the past and moving forward with a new perspective.

  8. I am with you 100%. I chose not to post about ED’s this week. I fear judgement- because I have regretted telling everyone I have ever confided in. I feel people view you through a different lens afterwards. Kind of like ‘OH….That makes sense”… and everything you chose not to eat/ or eat is scrutinized. I never had the supportive parents in regarding to ED. They wanted to ship me away and fix me. To this day (and mostly because of that) we rarely talk. They still go out of their way to look for all the things that are wrong with me and indicative of the need to ‘get help’. In otherwards, they just want to be right. I am so happy that you had a great family that shared in your triumphs! You are a beautiful girl- inside and out. Our past struggles make us wiser, more aware, and it is always encouraging looking back and seeing how far you’ve come!
    Wishing you nothing but the best!
    Barbara

    • Alyson
      Twitter: NourishedFit
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      I’m so sorry you’ve had that experience. Like so many things in life, even those that love us, who want to understand and help, just can’t or don’t know how to help in the right way. I hope / don’t think I’ll regret being more open about it. I think if others had been more open with me, maybe that would have helped.. who knows. Your comment just about brought me to happy tears, thank you so much :)

  9. WOW sorry about the spelling/grammer slip ups! That’s horrible! I meant I never had the supportive parents IN REGARDS to ED. SORRY… I promise I passed elementary! ha ha

  10. amazing post, I love that you did this and am so happy for your triumphs!!

  11. Great post! Having been through something similar my family was worried when I started measuring all my food going into contest prep. However ever sincce I’ve started my fitness journey my view of me and what I looked like changed for the best and even when I’m bigger now I don’t care half as much! Too bad some people judged you for it! You’re a great girl and they don’t know what they are missing!

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